“When sex becomes a production or performance that is when it loses its value. Be mutual. Be loud. Be clumsy. Make noises, be quiet, and make a mess. Bite, scratch, push, pull, hold, thrust. Remove pressure from the moment. Love the moment. Embrace it. Enjoy your body; enjoy your partners’ body. Produce sweat, be natural, entice your senses, give into pleasure. Bump heads, miss when you kiss, laugh when it happens. Speak words, speak with your body, speak to their soul. Touch their skin, kiss their goose bumps, and play with their hair. Scream, beg, whimper, sigh, let your toes curl, lose yourself. Chase your breath; keep the lights on, watch their eyes when they explode. Forget worrying about extra skin, sizes of parts and things that are meaningless. Save the expectations, take each second as it comes. Smear your make up, mess up your hair, rid your masculinity, and lose your ego. Detonate together, collapse together, and melt into each other.”—(via budddha)
I don't understand why he'd propose if he wasn't happy
neither do i, it’s definitely a shame when you can’t be enough for the person you love - but that’s something i will have to learn from and move on and whatever he does in life and wherever he goes - i hope his happiness finds him, just like mine will find me again.
Howcome you split up the first time? Like why did the engagement break down x
he wasn’t happy so he left me but it felt like there was no closure, he asked me to come back because he thought he would feel different but he still wasn’t happy. i did everything i could and i tried to give him the world and i wanted him to be happy so badly, but unfortunately you can’t make someone love you - and i had to accept that, stop wasting my time and leave.